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Friday, January 6, 2012

At War With Yourself

Have you ever seen this clip from the Disney movie Tangled?


Although my situation is MUCH different from that of Rapunzel...I find myself on the same emotional roller coaster.  One minute I am at peace and saying, "God has this all under control...He knows the timing...His timing is best".  The next I am crying out to God, "Lord...but I want the phone to ring now...my arms are empty...can't I just bring my babies home already!!"  Much like Flynn, my hubby sits calmly and states the obvious as I spin from one emotion to the other.  

I know God is in control and can MOVE MOUNTAINS...but will He choose to do it in this situation...for me?  Sometimes in our week fleshy moments we think, if I pray more, spend more time in my bible...etc...He will hear me and answer my prayers.  The reality is that I can't DO anything to find favor with God.  HIS grace is freely given and unearned.  He walks with us daily and supplies our needs even though we don't deserve it.  He blesses us even when we are disobedient.  But what about our wants?  God is certainly not a genie in a bottle popping out at our every beck and call.  I do believe however that He places things on our heart and delights in blessing us with them.  In Matthew 7:11 it says: If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!  

Well, I have asked and prayed.  Truth be told, I have also pleaded and begged:)  But it all comes down to this...what do I want more...the gift or the giver?  In those times where I am beside myself with impatience, and long for my little ones sooner than later, that is when I need to cling to the giver of all good things!  In those moments I loose myself in the presence of a holy, just God!!

2 comments:

  1. I chuckled at the video clip and I soooo relate to it much like you! Perfect clip for a great post! Keep on keeping on, my friend. HOPE in HIM!

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  2. Oh, all your posts are good. Each so true!

    ((hugs))

    Julie

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